Ogo amar Fatema's choto bhai...

eakta gopon khobor boli. bolo? ami, motamuti atmohottyar eakta valo budhi bair korsi.

eai october e eak bochor hobe ami chalu korsi... eata kaaz hoitese. eaita shobar jonnyo 

na, shudhu amar jonnyo.. ami chain smoker. bolo ki? biri kobe khaite shuru korla?

tumi janona kintu korsi. amerikay giya? humm, tao auto kisu beshi chilo na,. shob  shuru hoise december 2010 thikka. oi amader deshe world cup hoilo na, he? tokhon thikka. kyano?

dehse jaite chiasilam, khela dekhte. to, ashla na kayno? shei kahini bolte gele bangla bashar shobdokosh shesh hoiya jaibe.. tokhon thekei regular .. jotokhon jege thaki totokkhonkhai,...

tumi ghumao na? na. keno? ghumaite voy pai. gumaile jin ashe, shopno dekhi. shob sotti hoy..

bollam na, deshi she eakta hippi buri hoiya gese tar por khub shundor dekhte eakta cherel hat

dhoira choilagese. ghotona bastobe shotti. bolo tumi dekhi peer shab?

onekta sehi rokom i ghotona? ta moroner ki buddhi bair korla?

ami cigaret khai, r 9/10 bar thak vorti vorti baat khai. ghor theke kothao jai na. eak blok o hatina.

eai eak mashe 7 lb. ozon aro barse. amar diabetic ase. r ache dui tumor. eai je aazke, ami vabsilam,

mosjide zabo.. fitrar taka chaite, tumi eid er fitrar taka diye ki korba? nijer jonnyo. ami

tomake kalke ki bollam, ami manusher sadka r khoyrat niya ami amar jibon chalaitesi. ah! tumi

deshe asho? ki hobe? kisu hobe, are dhur? shuno... oi tumor tar eak ta naam ase. ki naam

masum. mashum? bah, valo tamto ! masum  naam kimone koira dila? 

karon, oi tumor ta kaita felaile ami baicha jabo.. eai ta onek koshto dey. ami byathay neel hoiya jai.

well, ami to kalo neel dekha jay na. ami beguni hoiya jai. eai je dekho... ami uthei partesi na,. 

ami amar dulabhai'r sofar modhye loma hoiya shuiya silam.. eakhon uitha boshchi. kintu pithe baythay norte partesina. byathata amar pet thikka pithe jay. amar komorer nich theke obosh hoye 

jay.. 

shorbonash ? tomar ki paralysis hobe ? na , hobe na.. taopor ki hobe, mota tunk? ki hobe... eakdin oita brust hobe.. tokhon ami more jabo. 

shighrir howar shomvabona beshi,,

tumi ki pura pagol hoiso naki? tomar okhane na bon silo? he ase, tar barir pashe eak mail dure eakta 

petrol pump e she falaiya gese.. tumi eai ghute kurani'r chele koi paisila?

 paisi ..jai houk, shuno..

ami eai vabe moira jabo.. amar vai der opoman, r amar baper opoman..

ami eai masher din koyta gele, byatha komle.. jabo..

ami poero din byathay kandi r ponero din byatha na hoile kandi.

ajob !! pagoler moto  kotha boilo na, dartarer kase zao..

shuno, oi je pagla adi ase na, ulab er? humm.. she gelo bar eai rokom amar pise lagsilo.. seh proti din amare dhaka thikka phone korto. shara amaerikay aloron tulse, pore tar thela khaiya..oi operation ta koraisilam... tomar jamai koi silo? silo.. she eai shob buzhe na..amar shashuri, nonod onek kore.. tara  korse..

eai baar.. anmar ekhar keu nai.. koyek ta pakistani maiya silo... tader sathe kono jogajog nai..

keu kisu jane na..

eai vabe ami mirtyu hobo..

tumi valo thaiko.. ami raisure chithi lihkbo eakta..

Nayem, boloto ami ki shuntesi? ki? shei gaan? abyub bachu? nah ! to azom khan? tor matha? ki ?
no balle buzhi kemne? bolo? acha, clue-- ki? commilla rasta... laker pare, riksha sathe naima. oh ! buzh si, oi asyesha jul kar gaan na? acha, r eakta clue, bolo... mahfuz, mota babu, nishat, shoma, okay? tumi eaishob gaan shuno? humm,.. eakhon kotto kotto shundor gaan hoise? eai shob gaan dadar amoler gaan shuno kyano henna? are dhur? ami to ghorir kata ghuraiya disi... ami tomar sinematao khujtesi you tube. e . konta? babys day out? aha ! ha  ! ha !ha ! ha ! ha !
heum oita amaio eakhon dekhi. to... dekhi tomar kotdur mone ache amar kotha? bolo koy bar amra shunsilam oi ganta? bolte parbo na, amar matha thika ase. tomar moton sit nai. tar poreo bolo.. mone nai.. kintu mone ache, pura 4 ghonta.. r amar haat byatha hoisilo, renewed korte korte. tumi kyano shamne bolsila? lomba ki amar dosh? to? mota babu to korte parto? oi byathar thang to khato.. humm ! ha !ha !Ha ! ha !ha ! ...

jano, ami eakta listi banaisi... amar jodi kono din kaaz baaz jute taile karo jonnyo kisu korbo. bah,
eai abbar notun ki, hazzi muhammad mohsin? eai chamra, ami ki byata? thukku vul hoise, apni hoilen, haazi mohammed MOHSINA. thik ase... hozz kopale nai. to ami koy nombore? tumi nai?
are? bolo ki? ke tomare burigongay nigesilo? ke tomare chand raite melay nisilo? shala ! tumi eatto kharap. tar poreo nai. to shune r  ki lav ase? bolo ! ami chahida onujai tinta listi banaisi. A - listi'r naam boli... bolo.. 1. fatema. hah! fatema ? amader fatema? or to biye diye dise amma,. hok.. valo.
tar pore, dada'r basha zulekha. sheo ki kazer lok ? 3. kutti bhair, mane amar nijer bashar, hazera.
4. mokbul bhai, preeti'r driver. 5. robiyul, sheba vabir kajer lok..6. sitir ma, she ke? amar chotobelar bua. acha.. 7. nam na jana bua, eaita ke? amar shashurir ache, tar bua. tumi biya korso koy ta? toamar na eakta shada jamai chilo? chilo eakhon nai. tare ki korso. gilla falaisi. otto kotha bolo kyan?
acha, bolo, eai shahsuri ta ke? ase, eakjon ... bichi chara byata tokaya paisilam,, tare biya korsi. to - bua paila koi? tumi deshe ashchila naki?  kobe? are dhur na. deshe kemne jabo? kyanmo toamer green card hoy nai? na. kisu nai. taile je oibar ashchila? churi koira. shuno, eai buyar naam listi te uthar jonnyo, tar joggyota tomake bolte chai..kyano? she eakta mohan upokar korse amar.'
bolo.. amar shamir fupato-khalato-nanato- bon, ore babare sheita abar ki? oi je desher manush, mama shohur bideshe tahko , to ghor bari dekha shunar korar jonnyo rakksilo..tarpor? she amar shoshur mara jawar por amar shashuri ke dekha suna korto r oi bahsay thakto. kintu oi jegramer to khali shoytan. amar shashuri ekala, so she motamuti chuklami koira tin kolur boloder-- malik hoise? eara kara? amar shashurir .. beukuf, hotovaggyo.. gadha tin ta chele.. shorbonash !!! bolo ki? tomar kismote konta zutlo? shobcheye  haba r gadha ta!! tar naam hoilo... 79 - khaleda.
 she , moha shushite silo. amar shahurur 2 nombor.. gunda , oi semriri sathe vab. onek vab. tar sathe phoen kore goppo mare. lomba goppo. amar jamai to bangalai bolte pare na. oi kutub amar shahsuri keo mithaya kotha bolse. tar por oi khaleda, jokhoni ter paise, ami bangaldeshi, amar baari borishal, mota moti pora lekha jaani.. she amar ke tabiz korse.. bolo ki? tumi amerikay thako eai shob hoy?
hoy ! hoy! tumibuzhba na. oi 2 nombor gundata aaba rmoshjide jay..oi ta.. eai shober mul. she shob ataka poysha dise amerika thikka. tara vai gon amerikay thake.
tar pore? tar pore r ki? oi semri..tabiz korse, kufri kalam korse, jin diya.. oi buya boila dise amar shshuri ke, she tokhon ore ghor thikka bair koira dise. ami amar
r deshe giya oi 2 nombor gunda ta oi semri ke abar ghore uthaise.. tarpor to abar amar shahsurir upor o mastani kora shuru korse. oi gunda tar buo o amre rikay thake, tar sathe milla amar shashurike amr pise lagasie.. khuna khuni kando.. amar shahuri to amake r dekhtei pare na, tar pore .. eaktu valo hoite shuro hoisilo bochor charek age.. tokhon oi dui nmobor gunda tar bou r tar boin milla amare jail hazot tazot shob korse.. bolo ki? tomar jamai kisu bollo na? na, kaynao, she ki bichi chara naki? eai ta kemon lok, ajob, bure mare, r she chup kore tahke, tumi oi lok ke talak diya dao. disi. well, she choila gese.. jai houk.. tader sathe amar kono shomporko nai.

byash zhamela miya gelo.. he, mitse. shei jon ami oi bua listi te rakhsi..

dekho aabar amar sound card bondho koira dise., eai tin danob amare zinda matir nise puita dise. tar poreo oder haush mite nai. tara amare eai vabe jalay...
amar oder hat thikka kno mukti nai. ora amare konokhaw apora o dey na. amanusher theke vikkhakorsi tin bochor eakhon boner ghare aisha uthsi... pore likhbo. tumi valo thaiko.

Fatema,, kire Eai shondhar somoy koi jash? Apar bashay, mach ante. bashay ke ase?

dada r vabi new market e, choto vhai ghumaite se.. shondhar shomoy  !  shorir kharap na?

tader cricket er match chilo. ashca, ja,,, tara tari ashish cha khabo. thik ache.

nayim, utho.. tumi eai rokom sofar modhye chit potang hoye suye aso kyano? are? tara tari utho?

shondha hoise? tumi shukrobare ashle na kayno? ami khubi tried. to? tumi ammar sathe giye golpo koro, amar jonnyo eak cup cha niya asho.. khalamma ghumaitese.. to ki hoise... fatema ke bolo.

nayim.. ami new market e jabo. vabbi bashay nai. tumi shudhu amar ghum ta vangaila.. to ki hoise? rate ghumaiyo.. 

thik ase, to tumi na bolla kalke amake ekta chithi lihba. humm, koi dao dekhi ki likhso?

kisu likhi nai. ami vule gesi.. jani to !! khali amerika chithi likho ? na, apake ami jibone o eak ta chithi likhi nai. tomar mone nai amar - naam ki? listy/ to r listy pathai na. 

thik ache, ki bolba? ............

ami eakta auti oshadharon shawpne dekhsi? ki dekhso? tomar biye hoye gese? valo dekhso. baba, bohut din biya khai nai. tomar biye te kintu ami borjatri, oboshoyi. oi loktar to keu nai.. choto moto bhai tai..

nayem. eai ta serious.. thik ase, ki? hasio na kintu? are baba hasbo na, shotti.. darao eakta cigaret dhorai.. 5 ta taka dao. nayeem gold leaf khao, B&H onek daam. share char taka. thik ase, dui taka dao. 

eakhon bolo... ami oi eak ta lok ase na, adha matha baal r adha matha chaal..? humm.. oh! Tak bhai? ji. chinsi chinsi bolo ekahon.. oi tak bhai choila gese bochor dui hoise. she taro dui bochor aag thikai jai jai kortesilo? kyano? tar tomare r pochondo na? are dhut ! 

acha, to dehi ki, lokta college er koridore. amar depertment er shamne. o ki du te pore? are nah ! 

oh ! A- level mara.. acha, dekhi she ashche, firot. tar por ami onek khushi hoisi. kintu raate dekhi bichana khali.ami tare khujte gesi, dekhi she onyyo duita loker sathe shuiya ache. she majh khane. tar por, tar por take ami tuilya haat dhoiyra ghore niya aschi. tar pore dekhi eak ta hall ghorer baranday shamne ami daraiye achi.. r she eakta maiya hoiya gelo? shada maiya ... hippi type. lomba loma zama, r jhola neoa. 

tar pore, tar pore eak gol mukh wala checle, young behsi boysh na, ayisha tar haat dhoira niya gelo?

ami to takshki khaisi.. eaita ki kore shombov? kintu nilo..'ami ha hoiya daraiasi.. ami chilli chili korte chilam kisu bolte pari nai. she eakta kothao bole nai oi loker haat dhoiya niya choila gelo !!

ajob. Henna she ki ge? monehoy. oi jonnyoi oh bod hoy choila gese..

oh ! bishoy ta amare khubi chintito korse !!! 

r eak ta jinish bolte hobe tumi kalke shondhay ashte parbe aziz e? 

'ashbo.. aicha, tokhon bolbo... bishoyta khubi chintar? ki tomar shopno? na na ! ami r eakta ochena manusher preme porsi..kothin rokom..

oh  ! eattokhone? bolo? dekhte kemun... tak matha.. ah! tumi ki khujia khuia khali tak matha pao naki? na, tar vuri ache, ache. tai to bhaloi hoilo. vuri ache, tak ache. jar takao ase tar. ko kore? chaoler arot? nayemm.. cholo khida lagse. fatema.. ilish ranna korbbe bolse, khai. kalke bolbo ne...

Valobashar Choto Miya,

asha kori apni istree, putro, konnya niya valoi achen. amar eakhono khalammar kotha mone
hoy.. tomake deke dito, " choto miya dyakh ke ashe"? mone ase nayim, jokhon tafir dada suye
thakto samner ghore? go tin bochore tomar kotha kom holeo tinsho ponchash hazar baar mone
hoise. r fatema's goshya ! kyano? tato buzhtei parso ! shob kisu to r eak bare likhte parbo na. ami tomake protidin eakta kore chithi likhbo? acha? ... tumi chinte parso to? ami, mota taunk.. r ki jeno eakta naam chilo amar.? moha raani.. ota khali .. khowar bil dewar shomoy. r maffuj r shoma amake jeno ki name dakto? khuchuri apa ! na ! bhule jaschi mota muti. shomar sathe, r nisat r mahfuer sathe 5 bochor age ekbar kotha hoisilo... tokhon tomar kotha shunlam. shoma khub valo ache.. tumi to zano shobi..

amar kotha boli... amar monta kharap. tumi to r dekhei bolte parbe na? ami to ayanr shamne nai?
mone mone dhore niyei likhsi. shotti mon kharap. dekho ami abar buri gongay joyar ansi.. sorry.
acha, cha khabo. thik ache. r? ki riksha na nouka? nouka. taka nai, amar ase , na? oh ! apni to moha raani.  fatema cha dibi?

to bolo ki hoise? mon kharap kyano? tar chithi ashe nai? na. taile ? kisu na. ah ! kisu to hoise, burigongay joar ashche ki batase? chondro grohon? na surjo ? konotai na. taile?

ami jail khanay silam gelo 12 din ! shorbonash !!! bolo ki? ki churi korla? kisu na. taile jailkhanay chila kyano? bolte chai na? thik ase, pore phone koiro, cholo jai, shondha hoise. ascha.
phone korlei to hoito.. khamokha 20 taka gelo amar ! eai tor taka? oi hoilo. taile ki? phone korbo kemne, phone nombor nai. r bhabir sathe amar iskule dekha hoy na. amar onek agei vabi potka maser jonnyo bashay ashe.

taile shukro bare aisho. na , laker pare jabo, sinema dekhbo..

nayim.... eai shob hoto amader kotha tomar mone ache? jail khana thaksi amerikay.. kintu jodi boltam tumi to oi tai bolte naki?

tomar sathe kotha bolar jonnyo amamr koilja fate, mon kande onek. kintu ki korbo?
ami je dairy te phone nombor likhsilam.. oita chore niya gese.
karo nombor nai.

ki azob desh dyakho? bangladeshe churi hoile hoyto, taka, goyna eai shob i nito.. ba bari ghorer dolil potro. amar to oshob kisu nai, tumi janoi., amar dairi khana niya gese. shomar shahurir nombor tao gese !! she ny a ase.

tomake eai chithi rate sesh korbo. eakhon cha khabo. matha byathay ton ton korse...

tomake amar eakta chobi dekhate parle valo hoto? tumi taski khaiya jeta !! ami onek onek mota hoisi... rate likhbo. allar kira.

BoBa Ami

I have been trying to vent, my unspoken self in a blog name : experience project.com .. I am very disappointed by their Maintaince. I would create my Profile and It will automatically made a duplicate by their management another persona. I have been writing there since July 2013. My real life Impostor, Counterfeit, who cutt off my vocal cord, who imperisond me since 2008 are living under my IP, profile. My stories, my ache , my pain copied by another woman. who is a convicted '
felon. They are high powerfull politically even in here in the USA. I really couldn't get any help. So, I hope I will talk more.. I am here a hope to be able to release my self. I am being heavier for me to carry on my 2.5 gm red-mussle. I am too tired !!!